a memorable goodbye~

Recently,my obviously had caught up attention from my friend,how stupid i was ?I attempts to control it but it proved futile.Yet,today,i did it ,i controlled myself just resemble as  a robot,i never talk a word to her in class,even my friends also barely.I have to admit that i fall in love to her,but i just want to have a distance with her.I wonder how embrassed between us if she know that i fall in love to her?I just want to tell her ,i love you,but how timid i was?What have i did it?I should continue talked to her instead of shut up?My heart keep on struggle all the time.When she walked and pass over me,my heart flutter rapidly,i just want to blurt out what in my mind,but i stopped myself and remained all silence in the class.i scared if i expressed my truth feeling,the possiblity of me and she will gradually decrease,until it stop.Fortunately,my friends,wong jenn nan ,look through what i  thought,he glance at my ashen face ,and persuade me to be a little bit aggressive ?I dont know,i felt dizzy .After that,i sat beside him,told him about the affinity in my heart.In order to recall my sprit,we did blow one own trumpet,gossip about someone,and talking about someone rumuor,my mood just came back,i became glad again.Just my mood came back,she joked at my friends,aatia,saying she love him so much and praised him was handsome as he was wearing a white hat.I stunned speechless although it was a funny joke.I asked myself did i envy or jealous?Yes?or no?Shortly,i became upset again until the bell rang,and i finally realized that it was  let out,i walked faintness,my area was totally enveloped in bleak darkness.I had my butterflies in my stomach.I keep on fidgeting without reason.Within myself,this was a big ordeal for me ,i could not handle it as possible i could.I walked down staircase and my tears  burst out suddenly but i bear it,it was fortunately or else this would be a hot topic in school,A men cried without reason?I increased my velocity,walked faster,and a hopes came to me.My friends,jenn nan encouraged me to say goodbye to her as today i did not even talked to her.Ultimately,i began to run to her direction,sauntered over her,and said goodbye to her.She reply me back,goodbye.A goodbye from my friends might not be so powerful,but her goodbye to me was valuable and entire of my power regain back,my spirit came back into my body.I feel a gargantuan resonance from her.I ran to basketball court and smile happily ever in my life.The moment was the best !!!!!!!!!!!

today

Today is a breezy day in my school,this area was enveloped in bleak darkness. A disgruntled wind ruffles my hair when i was walking to school,i shrank back,motionless.Suddenly,there was a person who sauntered pass me ,i lifted up my head and sniffed the musty air,glance the person who was just pass over me.A boy,he is a boy ,i peeled and gaze him for a few second, he was so familiar to me.Was him the person i sought?i thought yes,but i was tentatively,i tried to follow him instead of chat with him.On the spur of moment,he turned back his head,looked at me with suspicious eye,i was shocked and slithered.I slumped down on the floor and and my butt had a searing pain.He walked to me ,with a pair of muscular hands,he pulled me up again.He  talked to me  whereas i  talked to him at the same time,this was quite embrassed.Despite of this,i blurted out what in my mind.He was suprised and explained that he did not meet me before,i stunned,he might be forget me?I dont know,a lot of question mark came into my mind.After that,he walked in school immediately because of the bell rang.I have heaved sighs of relief.Then,i ran in school,and into my class,sat down,and had affinity in my heart.

my mind

Yesterday was a meaningful day.All things went smoothly,we sang,ate,played,chat,communicate,or even  frightened a girl who was timid,her voice was so big,same place,different time.This was so exciting,i never attempts to be so happy before i met my friends.We studied,played,and did blow one own trumpet together.Although we got into hot water ocassionaly,my friends were resemble jack-of-all-trades,they could solved the problem in a good condition,we often helped each other.Even though i have shouldered a lot of burden this year as the SPM was coming soon,but i so glad to met them,i hoped the time move slowly or slithered,or even stopped it,i lifted up my head and sniffed the air,the moment when i peeled through their eyes, some weird and peace feeling,i could said that,that day,we were happy,and also funny.Without all of you,i might be lonely.All of You,thanks you

A girl

After my workout in club,i went back home by walking a straight alley,Although the alley is so silence and horror,this had retrieved my memory about a girl.When i was form 4,i had made some problem in my academic,this was so terrible.However,there was a girl who always encourage me,it made me reclaimed my power.As the result,my result had improved so much.But at the same time,she also made a problem that was same with me.On that time,i knew i had to do something to make her reconver her confident,brilliant and patience.Start from that day,i oftem called her as i had surplus time,i encourage her,teach her something she dont know ,and communicate with her.Formerly,her life was not as idle as me,her life was hectic,she even rest for 3hour per day only,this situation made me so appreaciate her because of her strongful.By the way,i suppose she was a god or a human,3 hour sleep for her was usual.Eventually,god could do something that human cannot,but human could not do what god usually did,she finally fall sick and could not get up by herself.So,i manage to take care of her as this is my responsibility.I often call her in phone,talked with her，enlighten her.Once time,she cried because of the final year exam,she was so frustrated in that time,i keep comfort her to make she stop crying.Finally,she stop,and thanks me for help.She promised she will be more stronger in the future.I will look forward to it!

about today

Just as usual,i am hectic for my academic today,  this day is not such value and memorable for me,On the morning ,i woke up at 6 o clock and reach school at 7 o clock,Just when i reached to school,i had posted to an assembly.The assembly is full of student and someone who come late is standing beside the last row of the students whom sitting on the floor.Although the wind is breezy,i did not have any facial expression,just feel like boring today,maybe i am tired today.Perhaps i had shouldered a lot of burden,but i tried to steelem myself but cant.Thus,i became emotional today.However,i was shocked when when i heard an annoucement from our pricipal,she said a teacher was going to retired.Suddenly,my mind full off question mark,an assets is going to lose again,a mentor,credential ,dedication and dignified teacher is going to leave us again,we might said farewell to she,pn norsiah,again.Indeed she had taught me sejarah since i am form 1 and form 2.This annoucement impact me so much,my face become more emotional,even sour than a lemon.After that,i went in my class,5 Maju,continue my hectic rountine...

my form 5 life

This is the 5th day since i went to school.In fact on first of Januray,1/1/2013,my stars,Girl Generation had release an album,"i got a boy ",i was so suprised and happy because this day  had come,i even  share this news to my classmate .But a weird phenomena happens,they do not enjoy it ,they said Girl Generation was a worst group.At that moment,my heart broken and lost of enthusiasms,i wondered why?what happen to them?,Shouldn't they felt happy at all?If i am not wrong,they and me,were a fancams of girl generation.I heard so many negative signs from them,those negative signs made me became emotional that day,i did not talk with them expect i ask some academic question that i face that day.Speechless,i dont know what should i said to them,my estimated is totally wrong,they had already change their mind ,they had changed from a fan to a hater.Although i tried to explain the concept of this album,they didn't concetrate on in,i felt so upset,this group is their best group in the past.But from now,its not ,they even said that all of them had plastic sugery.Yes,i admit it,they had plastic sugery before.,but i think almost korean people had plastic sugery before?Perhaps i like their song more than their adorable face.What i want to say is,they put so many effort on it,but no people appreaciate it,too bad,this is too bad for me.Well,my friend didnt like them.i dont care about it,i just do myself,be a forever fans of them.That is enough for me.

my form 4 life

First,i want to introduce myself , I am Loke Zhen Hao from 4 maju,since now is 5 Maju,between form4 and form 5 life,i can feel that there is a big difference between 4 maju and 5 maju ,when i was 4 maju,i just a naive boy,who always play ,play and play ,I  just looking for some pleasure because school life is bored,my brain just keep remind me that SPM is coming soon.Although i knew SPM is coming ,but i did'nt take it seriously.Everyday,i just play basketball ,doing something childish,i even skip my class because i dont take it serious.Eventually, i realize my result is so bad in trial .So,i decided to reclaimed myself ,start to do some revision at home,but my result still didn't get well,Guess i am in de bad condition.From that day ,i throw off all my stubborn stuff ,trying to be a mature boy.At the first day,i did it ,but start from second day,i totally give up because of the computer games and basketball,they are just captivated my heart,just like someone beside me,telling me,play it,play it and play it.my heart was exploded,i asking myself.Why!?why i cant control my desire?why this harsh treatment will happen on me ?i was so upset and lose my confidence,i felt that my life is meaningless,i despise myself,i felt sorry to my parents,they put their hope on me,but i just paid back nothing,but i had been changing myself since my english tuition teacher taught me,at the moment he teach me,he keep encouraged me.At first,it doesn't help me,but when the time past,i felt my confidence is back,i just reclaimed my determination,i tried to study everyday,i pull my computer plug so i can't play it ,because of this,i struggle about 1week.Finally,i break away evilish stuff ,and began my new life,i study ,work out ,do household ,do everything i can do apart from switch on my computer and play games.It works,my result had been jump from lower region to higher region ,i was so delight ,i share it to my parents and my parents felt happy,i also appreaciate to my english teacher who has always encourage me when i was in problem.Thank you ,my teacher,because of ur asists,i feel energetic and powerful,i will beat SPM after 10 more months.I promised.