my form 4 life

First,i want to introduce myself , I am Loke Zhen Hao from 4 maju,since now is 5 Maju,between form4 and form 5 life,i can feel that there is a big difference between 4 maju and 5 maju ,when i was 4 maju,i just a naive boy,who always play ,play and play ,I  just looking for some pleasure because school life is bored,my brain just keep remind me that SPM is coming soon.Although i knew SPM is coming ,but i did'nt take it seriously.Everyday,i just play basketball ,doing something childish,i even skip my class because i dont take it serious.Eventually, i realize my result is so bad in trial .So,i decided to reclaimed myself ,start to do some revision at home,but my result still didn't get well,Guess i am in de bad condition.From that day ,i throw off all my stubborn stuff ,trying to be a mature boy.At the first day,i did it ,but start from second day,i totally give up because of the computer games and basketball,they are just captivated my heart,just like someone beside me,telling me,play it,play it and play it.my heart was exploded,i asking myself.Why!?why i cant control my desire?why this harsh treatment will happen on me ?i was so upset and lose my confidence,i felt that my life is meaningless,i despise myself,i felt sorry to my parents,they put their hope on me,but i just paid back nothing,but i had been changing myself since my english tuition teacher taught me,at the moment he teach me,he keep encouraged me.At first,it doesn't help me,but when the time past,i felt my confidence is back,i just reclaimed my determination,i tried to study everyday,i pull my computer plug so i can't play it ,because of this,i struggle about 1week.Finally,i break away evilish stuff ,and began my new life,i study ,work out ,do household ,do everything i can do apart from switch on my computer and play games.It works,my result had been jump from lower region to higher region ,i was so delight ,i share it to my parents and my parents felt happy,i also appreaciate to my english teacher who has always encourage me when i was in problem.Thank you ,my teacher,because of ur asists,i feel energetic and powerful,i will beat SPM after 10 more months.I promised.